One Question...

This was penned sometime back, and saved in My Documents...Found it while I was cleaning up my system of all the junk that had accumulated for a year...

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I am in a new role...Gone past are the discussions, interviews, negotiations...I was never tensed, because I was happy in the previous role as well...The new role was a new oppurtunity I had come across in my organisation which I felt suited me and would benefit me in the long run...Thinking back on to that interview for the role...

A simple question...
Asked to a person whose major area of work has been SQL...
In mind, technically I was a SQL person...
I could talk people through my mind, and make them think in affirmative...
I had a lot of confidence in how I presented myself...
All the good reasons to qualify for this role was on my side...

But then a simple question...
A simple SQL question...
I knew it, it sounded very known and familiar...
But at the apt moment I couldn't recollect...
It was simply there, refusing to refresh into the fresh pages of my memory...

A trigger to thoughts...
A breeze of humility...
Far more attentivity and care in answering questions...
Left the "I am perfect" attitude...
Adopted an anyday better "I have lots to learn" attitude...

What a change, I really do sound better in the answers given...
I feel the glow of faith within me, that he will guide me through this...
I feel great from within, no pretensions, no effort to create impression...
I get a taste of my truthful self...

It is surprising how we get carried away by situations at times, feel a little over-confident and that shows out as a little arrogant and high-handed behaviour.
But with all the keys from a middle class restricted upbringing and my own conscience, thankfully I got over that momentary arrogant phase that gained an upper hand in a interview.

It is surprising how a question put forth, put me straight to the right slot as a humble being.

Ohoho..Look at this!

Attempting a new look for Ensemble...[:D]
And recording it with this small entry...

An year to remember...

2009 has seen me very little as a blogger...i was not able to come to my self as a blogger who loved describing the smallest events in life, the person who saw a story in normal things, a sentiment in small incidents...but then, when 2009 winds to a close and i look back, it is yet another year to remember...

2008 would be an unforgettable year for me, for the grand entry Keshav made into my life..2009 would be remembered because i have matured as a mother...i have taken maternity in my stride..i have rekindled the person in me who was getting lost in hustle and bustle of maternity..i have rediscovered the youth in thoughts...and am trying to get the mother in me travel alongside the daughter, wife, sister and friend...

hope that i can reflect on myself through last year in the few days that remain of 2009...even if it all doesn't get reflected on Ensemble, there are a lot of thoughts coursing through mind...

the beautiful start to this year with the long drive to Kerala..the distance we spanned in people through Palghat, Kochi and Alleppey is one of the best treks we had, and will always be cherished for a dear friend who gave us company through the journey, and through whom we discovered the buoyancy of spirits and elevation that a genuine enthusiast can lend...Thanks Vandy, you always hold a special place in my heart...

One of my biggest dreams was to drive a car on my own...As you know, driving licenses seldom point to actual drivers...in late 2008, i started my tryst with driving again, under Sandettan's watchful eyes...And 2009 took Sandettan away to Mysore on work, and thus started my bon voyage through Bangalore...I drove up through blunders and mistakes, to make the confident driver of today..It was another feather in the armour for me, i truly cherish the self reliance and independence driving gave me...also, i remember the best moments when i drove out with Keshav all buckled up in the car seat playing the song we loved and sweet talking..

2009 saw a long span of separation from Sandettan, as he left to Mysore on work..i saw recession in close quarters..i realised the strength friends and relatives can give through tough times..i can remember a few friends who took my cause as they would take their personal stuff, my eyes are misty in those thoughts..but most of all, when we stayed apart i saw how happy and full our life together had been..we were chasing our silly worries when life was at the most wholesome for us with our togetherness...

two months in the beautiful city of Melbourne, a role change that took me there..it was a welcome break from stress of staying away from Sandettan, for a very worked up one and a half years as a mother...me and Keshav took our respective dividends, he with a wonderful time spent with his grandparents which has left him smarter, curious and talkative..And me with some time to chill out, reorganise myself and get back recharged...

2009 for the first time in life when i look at myself and felt conscious about weight gain...for the diet control, systematic yoga and gym combination that i am trying to stick on to...for giving myself more time to look within and to look good..

that is a lot 2009, and my kitty of resolutions for 2010 is already full...